Former Essendon coach and club great Mark Thompson has opened up on the impact the supplements saga has had on his life.
Thompson was a keynote speaker at a Law Institute of Victoria this morning.
The Age reported the on-going impact the saga has had on his life saying that it will 'probably end up killing' him.
“It just sits in my guts and churns and it still does and it’s going to probably end up killing me because I can’t let it go. People tell me I’ve got to let it go, but I can’t" he said in the comments reported by The Age.
Thompson also blames the ordeal for the break down in personal relationships, particularly his second marriage.
"I lost my wife because of it, I reckon, because I was up at night reading about all my exploits on the internet, catching up on tomorrow's news as it came out."
The Bombers had 34 players handed bans from playing any form of football, and Thompson received a $30,000 fine for his part in the program despite no evidence of any wrong doing on his behalf.
"There was no hearing, it was two days of just waste... 'how much is the acceptance of guilt are you going to accept? Do you want to accept $40,000 worth of guilt? Or 30 or 20?' I said, 'none'. I said, 'just give me a chance to defend myself. I want to talk to you, I want my solicitor to talk to you and try and get me off and say what my involvement in this whole program was'. There was none of that, we never got the chance."
Thompson has not accepted any responsibility for what has happened and claims that he was one of the few people who against the appointment Stephen Dank, the pioneer of the supplements program.
This situation has soured Thompson's relationship with the sport claiming that he does not 'like' the game anymore.
"I'm quite bitter and twisted and I think I have got the right to be. I don't like the game any more, I don't want to work in the AFL system, I don't want to associate with people. I'm sorry, but that's the way it is.
The Geelong dual-premiership coach can not believe that the truth of what happened has not come out and believes that many individuals are trying to hide the truth.
You can read more about it on The Age website.